Continuing with the idea of illusionment

I've come to a conclusion about silence. It can be great when you need a moment of peace. In other words, it's great when you're out in nature. By you I mean me. I find that silence is wonderful when I'm just browsing around the creations of the world... but silence within a dark, boxed space is not so pleasant.

Maybe it's simply because I'm claustrophobic? I guess it could be a number of things. I do have a belief that humans were meant to be outdoors. Indoors is a convenient place to remain warm. Beyond that, I much prefer being outdoors. Except when winter rolls around. Then there's a problem with being outside. Unless if there's plenty of snow to play in... but that's not the point..

Yesterday I had a lot of silence. However, it was not in the comfortable blanket of nature. I had most disturbing ideas... but there's only one really worth sharing.

Have you ever seen 'The Truman Show'? If you haven't, go watch it or look it up on wikipedia. I would say it might be worth your time, depending on how you spend your time.

Thinking about this created a thought. What if this life is an illusion? There is no real proof that I exist, maybe this is all in my head? It seems like a terrible game especially at this particular point. Some days I feel like I'm completely losing my mind.. and if life was only a set-up... my goodness! Someone would be getting some great entertainment. Quite probably too much for my liking. It's easy to get caught up in patterns, especially when one doesn't get a chance to think productively such as places in nature.

Probably going to continue with this idea again...

This is me.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." —Marilyn Monroe